Ordinary Time 25
September 20, 2026
Meaning of Life
Have you
ever had the experience of God speaking to you? A lot of Catholics don’t
understand how that works, so let me give a brief explanation. Many times we go
to prayer and we will have a thought that is not in our usual “thought voice”.
You know how your inner monologue sounds? Sometimes we will have a thought that
is stronger, more persistent, or in a different “thought voice” than the one
that usually runs in our head. Sometimes that’s accompanied by a strong emotion
like inexplicable peace or a strong desire. This is how God usually speaks to
people: not that we’re “hearing voices” but that the Holy Spirit will inspire
us to think a certain thing that comes in a different thought-voice or doesn’t
seem to match up with our usual train of thought.
So, that’s
a background to a story I’m about to tell you. Last spring, one day I had a
very intense conversation with a student – I’ll call him Billy – at the school
where I teach. It was a conversation about his faith and kind of a
come-to-Jesus moment. He shed some tears, and made some resolutions to follow
Jesus more closely – it was very inspiring. That night, I woke up from a dead
sleep in the middle of the night, with the strong thought running through my
head – “You have to pray for Billy!”
Well, I
knew it was from the Lord, but I was very comfortable in my bed, so I hemmed
and hawed for a moment before reluctantly rolling out of bed and stumbling down
to the chapel in our rectory. As soon as I walked in, I heard God say the
following strong, mentally loud words (in my mind, not my ears): “I am
preparing him.” That was it. I kept asking God what He was preparing Billy for,
but I felt nothing more – which is how I knew it was from God, not from myself.
So after ten minutes of prayer I went back to bed.
The next
day I told Billy about this experience. He got very excited and wondered, “What
is God preparing me for?” I don’t know, and neither did he. Fast-forward a few
months, and I’m with Billy at Camp Veritas. He wanted to skip one of the talks,
so he and I sat on a park bench and talked about a lot of topics but at one
point I asked him, “If you knew you were going to die in one year, what would
you do?” He thought for a moment and said, “I’d probably pray a lot more, get
closer to God.” So I asked him point-blank – “Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed. Why
not do that now?” He got the point and we had another great conversation about
his faith.
A week
later, he sends me this email, “Fr. Joseph, I’m sitting on my bed on a cruise
in Bermuda and it just hit me – you said God is preparing me, you asked me
about living for one more year…I think something’s going to happen to me this
year! I’m going to die!” I wrote back and tried to calm him down – no, I don’t
think he’s going to die. He wrote back a few hours later and said, “I just went
jet-skiing and had a ton of fun, so I’m fine now. Thanks.” Ha! Classic
overreaction – but it brought up a great question in his mind: if you were
going to die in a year, what would you do differently?
As we
prepare to breathe our last, our life will flash before our eyes. What will we
regret? What will we wish we did differently? What will we be most grateful
for? Will we wish we spent more time at the office? Will we wish we played more
sports? Will we wish we could get a few more hours of screen time in?
I’ve
worked with plenty of dying people, and none of them have ever wished for these
things. Rather, their regrets were about love: I wish I had spent more time
with my kids. I wish I was more generous with my money. I wish I had loved God
more and prepared my soul to meet Him. We will never regret prayer, generosity,
sacrificing for others.
What is
the meaning of life? To enjoy it? To have “success” (defined by the world as
making money and living the American Dream)? St. Paul is clear about the
meaning of life in our Scriptures today. “To me, life is Christ, and death is
gain.” The meaning of life is to know, love, and serve God, so we can be
eternally happy with Him in Heaven. Let’s break into that.
First,
the meaning of life is not about us. We are meant to live for the glory
and praise of God our Creator. On a plane flight back from Italy this summer, I
had nine hours to kill so I ended up watching three hours of nature
documentaries (I mean, it was one of the few clean movies that wasn’t a Disney
cartoon). But it struck me after three hours that the lives of all these
different birds and beasts were really very similar. All they did was find
food, build shelter, and mate. That’s it. That is the entirety of their lives.
Food, shelter, reproduce. Sadly, I think that’s also the meaning of life for
many human beings too. Find food – we spend forty-plus hours at our jobs to
make enough money to put food on the table, and then do it again the next day.
We build our shelters – our homes – and then fill them with every possession
and convenience known to mankind. And then we focus on our mate – just trying
to navigate through the rocky and difficult marriages that most of us have, and
drive our kids to soccer practices so that the next generation can get a
scholarship to college. And to distract ourselves from the emptiness of that
existence, we try to fill those quiet moments with entertainment on our little
devices so we don’t have to think about the futility of our lives. As Henry
David Thoreau said, “The mass of men live lives of quiet desperation.” How many
times have you asked someone how they’re doing and they respond, “Same stuff,
different day”?
Maybe
it’s because we know that we are made to live for more. What sets us apart from
the animals is that we have a spiritual soul which can never be
satisfied by earthly goods. We need to live for something greater than food,
shelter, and keeping the human race going – our hearts long for more. Pope St.
John Paul II once said, “Man can only find himself in a sincere gift of
himself.” Our life is a gift meant to be given away. We all give ourselves to a
cause bigger than us: maybe we dedicate our lives to following a sports team,
or to politics, or to eliminating injustice, or to saving the environment. But
the only cause that endures for eternity, the only truly noble and transcendent
reason to live and die, is for God.
We were made
for an eternity with God! Look at any superhero movie – the whole plot is to
keep everyone alive from the aliens or robots or evil villain who are trying to
destroy the world. The desire for self-preservation runs pretty deep in our
hearts, and it points to a deeper reality: we don’t want to die. We want to
live forever. This desire points to its fulfillment: there is an
everlasting life that we are created to enjoy – but it’s not here on this earth
which is rife with suffering, sorrow, and brokenness. But this everlasting life
is not something we can achieve through science, medicine, or strength of will.
As they say, “death is the great equalizer.” But we know someone who has
already conquered death – Jesus Christ, Who after entering into the mystery of
death, destroyed it from within by rising again three days later. So our
heart’s cry for an eternity of happiness is not just wishful-thinking – it is
meant to be fulfilled in God Who longs to grant it to us!
Paradoxically,
those who discovered truly the meaning of life were those who were willing to
lay their lives down for Christ. We call these the martyrs – those whose
love for God was so intense that they were willing to shed their blood for Him.
Since the beginning of the Church, there have been hundreds of thousands of
people ready, even eager, to shed their blood for Christ. Their witness makes
us ponder: is God worth giving up one’s life?
I think
of the example of St. Xi Zhuzi, who was not even baptized when he gave up his
life for God. He was a Chinese teenager around the turn of the century. The few
Christian families he knew in the village lived so differently from the rest –
with joy, love, purity of heart. He found this very attractive, and asked to be
instructed in the Faith. But his parents found out and gave him an ultimatum:
worship the family ancestors, or be disowned from the family. He chose the Lord,
and was kicked out of home at seventeen. He was adopted by a Catholic family,
but soon his family found out where he was and sent for him to come home. His
journey was intercepted by the anti-Catholic Boxer rebels, who asked him if he
was a Catholic. He replied yes, and they began to torture him. But as he was
dying, he cried out, “Let every piece of my flesh, let every drop of my blood
profess that I am a Christian!” Is this not the greatest meaning of life: to
proclaim that every breath in our lungs, every beat of our heart, is for Jesus
Christ? May this be the purpose of our lives too!
(And
after St. Xi’s death, his family was so moved by his witness that they became
Christians, too).
I cannot
tell you what to live for – that is a personal decision in your own heart. But
if you’ve felt the restlessness and emptiness of modern life and are hungering
for something more, perhaps it’s time to look to God. That starts right now
with an invitation – just as God speaks to us in our thoughts, make a silent
prayer asking God to reveal Himself to you. As you seek Him, remember that He
has been seeking you first.
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